The Yin-Yang is a symbol that many people are familar with.  It represents the positive and negative forces that are believed to be in our life.  Until recently, I just thought of it as an overused tattoo symbol just like everything else asian. :)  However, I have come to realize that there does seem to be a relative balance in everyone's life when it comes to good and bad.  It definately seems to be the case in mine anyways. 

Let's start with the good new first.  I can say with 99% certainty, that I finally got hired on with a police department...THANK GOODNESS!  I get to quit the job that I truely hate and hates me!  I can't say with 100% certainty because I still have to pass a physical stress test (which I am not worried about) and find out if I am not crazy...the voices I keep hearing tell me I should be fine and they are usually right.  Of course, with the good that is happening to me, the universe had to balance my scale of life with a little bit of bad!

I keep telling myself everything happens for a reason.  It is some fatalistic way of looking at life and trying to make myself feel better I guess.  But I had a feeling it was too good to be true when the whole thing started.  I could have easily played the selfish card and tried swinging the outcome to a more favorable one, but for some altruistic mentality I possess, I always put my friends happiness before my own.  I know what it is like to have a goal and not stopping until that goal is attained, hell, I am still traveling along my path towards my own.  I guess that part of life could be compared to a cross country road trip.  You have a destination set and you want to get there as fast as you can so the fun...life can begin.  But no matter how diligent you are in reaching that destination, I can guarantee that there will be at least one stop along the way.  Sometimes those stops can be a nussance and short lived, but some of them can be worth the time as a welcome relief from the diligent journey.  Because many times, the ultimate destination plays only a small part in our lives, and it is the journey itself that we'll remember the most.  So maybe it might be worth the time to slow down and take in a few sites, you'll never know what you've missed when you race by them focused solely on the destination. 

 Who knows...maybe the best decision did result, but that doesn't make it the right one.  " It's better to break one's heart than to do nothing with it"  - Margaret Kennedy